Here is my story, I write it from the deepest heart

An illustration of a happy family

      Hi, first of all, my name is Susi Nurindahsari. Usually called Susi by the most of people, but actually the real nickname of me is Sari, and I feel I prefer to be called Sari. I'm the first child in my family and have a little brother, he is 6 years younger and his name is Amri. My dad is 51 years old and my mom is 50 years old. They married in 2001, and on April 23, 2002 I was born with the brightest welcome smile from them. I never met my grandparents (dad's parents), because they passed away even when my mom and dad didn't get married yet. And I just could see my grandpa (mom's dad) for 3 years also with grandma (mom's mother) was just 10 years. I called them Mbah. I love my family so much, but I always broke their hearts and will always be. I don't even know when I can stop making them feel disappointed, sometimes I hate myself very hard because of it.

      I wanna tell about my beloved mom. She's so pretty and humble. Having a kindness heart, so she always tries to help people when they need her help. She also can make everyone who talks to her feels comfort, include me. I think mom is a very wise woman. She almost can do everything, such cooking, cleaning our house, wash our clothes, sewing, etc. Ya I know those are basic things people should can do, but for me those all are very tiring. Mom is always be a nice place to telling about my daily activities routine. What happened in campus, what I did while I was with my friends, how can something happened to me, something like that. But no one is perfect, right? same with other people, she also has a lot of lacks. Mom is very often to be grumpy, especially when people at home make mistakes. Honestly, sometimes I feel so sick cause she will keep speaking until feel relieved, but I end up with just be quiet. Meanwhile, mom likes to give ideas to go somewhere on Sunday. Reminding our family just have quality time in every night and on Sunday.

      Now, I will tell about my dad. My dad is a hard worker, maybe. We sometimes help him to promote his company products or help to do his test. He is a pretty quiet person, if no one talk to him, he won't speak anything, although when he with his children. When mom isn't at home (going other city or have an event) the atmosphere at home is like no one live there. Just sounds from tv, phone, or animals like cricket, frog (after raining), etc. But, he is very nice to his family. When his children or wife want something, dad usually go out to buy it although he's tired cause just arrived home. But, the most thing I never like from him is his words when I did mistakes (even I didn't think it is a mistake). Like, he could ask me first, why I did that, why not did like this. I never mind when people tell me my mistakes, but please with good words too. He always saying with words which hurt me. Even he ever said a bad word to me. I never could hold up my tears, even when I was with my friends. So embarrassing. 

      This, telling my little brother. Like the most of boy out there, he can be a nice boy, but please, when he starts to be suck, I really want to kick him out of the house. During his grow until now, he changed so much, like appearance, voice, and his personality. However, he still being suck, I don't know why, maybe cause he's still a child and don't think wisely. Besides, he is really a good boy when he's in a good mood. Every what I said, my command, he always did it. Amri is still 12 years old this year, and in grade 7. I don't get it, exactly, why his girl friends are adoring him?. What they see on him?. Though he isn't taking care of his face and body (still lazy and doesn't care), many girls around him take their attention on Amri. But, if he starts to take care of his face and body, I know, he's a handsome boy. I don't deny it.

      Although my family isn't a perfect family, we have each other that makes us getting stronger. I'm touched when they do something ridiculous just to amuse someone among us (when he/she gets bad mood) and when we support each other with our own way. Example, a few days ago, I had a task to made a review about phone or laptop, I have my brother to help me take the video and he did it. When it finally had done, I shared the link of my video (Youtube link) to our family group on Whatsapp. Unexpected, my dad shared it to our big family group and his friends too. I never imagine he would do that. Because of that, my viewer got more than 20 viewers in a day. It was my first experience to upload a video on Youtube, and I got a little new thing, I thanked my dad.

      I can't stop thinking what will happen in the future. What will I earn, how I earn something. Do my dreams come true? Do I still make my parents disappointed? Do I bring their desire with good achievements?. I don't know until the day come, I should study harder and pray more. The most important thing is I should believe in Allah and myself. My biggest fear is I forget where I come when I already being a successful woman in the future. However, the question is, can I be a success woman?. I wanna thank my family cause they are always there by my side in every situation. When people around me don't care to me, they are the first ones to care. I think I can't live without them, because I depend on them so much. I hope Allah gives us a chance to live together until we have white hair among our black hair. Maybe I can't say it in front of them, but I love them until I die.


Questions:
1. What writer's family do on Sunday?
2. Who is writer's brother's name?
3. How writer's family support her?
4. When writer's parents got married?
5. Where is writer's dad work?
6. Why sometimes writer hate herself?